I am a women and my BRAIN never stops thinking about my little Kaden. EVERYTHING and I mean EVERYTHING reminds me #1 of the sweet joy he brought me, #2 that he is not here
#3 how it HURTS oh so ever badly.
There are moments...I am grateful my brain NEVER stops. There are also moments I just want to SHUT it off for a little while. But...all that said...I remind myself constantly of the GREAT and WONDERFUL reuinion we will have one day. I pray that my sweet Kaden is comforted as I am also comforted because I KNOW he MISSES us too! He longs for us as much if not more for us. I know it HURTS him to see me HURTING...tears...I am so very grateful for the Atonement for it makes the Gospel POSSIBLE to work.
In Sunday School yesterday our Teacher did a little demonstration. We all were to stand. The last standing would get the Gift she brought. She said "OK anyone who has ever sinned stay standing, ever lied, ever needed comfort, ever offended by someone, ever...ever...ever..." As we ALL were still standing she said of course. I knew you would all be standing. That is why this gift is for EVERYONE!
The Atonement is a GIFT. For everyone. Love our Heavenly Father. We are able to be forgiven, comforted, it gives us the opportunity to be ressurected, it takes away the act of the Fall (so we are not responsible), it allows us to come back in his presence one day, it allows Kaden and us to reunite one day,etc...etc.... It makes everything in his plan for us simply possible.
A man said this in our class...and I LOVED it: listen or should I say READ carefully....
"DON'T let what you DON'T know ever get in the way of what you DO KNOW!!"
That brings me to my conclusion:
I could question and question and ask WHY WHY WHY....but I must not let what I don't know ever get in the way. I do know that I have a testimony of the gospel. That is truely ALL that matters. I do know I have an Eternal Family.