Friday, February 10, 2012

Happy 1st Birthday Karter...a little late....:)

Dear Karter,

From the moment I felt I wanted to bring another baby to this earth I knew you would be special.  I was right.  To say you have helped heal a HUGE part of me after your brother died would be a complete understatement! I always said I would never want my other children to take away or for me to feel like they took the place of their oldest brother and you have deffinately not done that.  You remind me of him. Yes. You. Do! But you are your own special self and I love you seprately!

My pregnancy with you was hard.  I was so worried I was going to go thru the same thing I went thru with your brother's pregnancy and life.  It terrified me.  But your daddy had much faith and gave me a comforting blessing that I would deliver a healthy baby that would bring me much joy....and I did and am! 

I have tried to focus on each moment! Enjoying every day.  Kaden really taught me that!  The hard with the good!  It is not easy being a mom but I know that you have helped me feel like the mom I know I am supposed to be! You are SO FULL of life and are so CURIOUS! I know you get that from your dad and your older brother!  

I am so greatful for the past year that I have seen you make the milestones babies should make and you are turning into a very opinionated happy little toddler.  You don't walk by yourself but I know you will soon! You love your mom and dad! You even say mamama and dadada and know who is who!! You are so smart! You drink out of your straw cup so soficticated and you only take your binki when you go down for a nap!  My favorite thing you do right now is give me a "love" when I ask for one right before I lay you in your crib to go to sleep! SO SWEET!!! 

I was so excited for you to have a special birthday party.  We had family and friends at the park by our house.  We ate pizza, fruit and cake/cupcakes.   Speaking of cupcakes you LOVED yours and grandma even snuck you another one.  2 CUPCAKES....boy you were in HOG HEAVEN!  It was bitter sweet as we thought of your older brother that afternoon.  You are a reminder of what we missed with him but have to look forward to someday...just not today.  I hope I always make you feel like the special boy you are.  I love you so much....even when you test my patience to the limit!! :)  Happy Birthday my handsome little peanut!