one of many battles....

our little guy is sick. he is being put on antibiotics and they sound as always midline...never too excited about anything...but please keep Kaden in your prayers...thanks for the support! this is one crazy and long road but I know we can do it! He is our little "FIGHTER!!"

PICTURES!!!

So where to even begin?? I have no clue! Well...actually I can't begin to thank all of you enough for the continued love and support and the constant prayers!! I feel that is the only way sometimes I get through the day....I just love my little Kaden. Rusty and I feel so blessed to have such a sweet child and look forward to the day we get to really hold him. Our hearts swell with joy everytime we see him peacefully laying in the incubator. I could ramble on about I how feel and how things go from day to day but I will just post a cute video my friend made of some pictures I have taken...hope you enjoy as much as I do!

Kaden Addington Fife

Our Little Miracle was born

June 5, 2009 at 2:17pm

1lb. 14 oz and 13 inches long

After spending 2 weeks and 2 days in both Gateway and Banner Desert hospital fighting to stay pregnant Kaden decided he didn't want to wait any longer.  It all happened so fast.  There is so much to explain and understand.  When he was born the NICU Dr's were right there ready for him.  They immediately incubated him wrapped him up and let me hold him for 2 secs and I gave him a kiss on his tiny hand.  They rushed him up to the NICU and off with Rusty he went.  

I was discharged from the hospital today.  I have lots of emotions running through me and appreciate all the love and prayers of those around me.  He will need your prayers and we will to so we can all get through this time.  We need the extra strength.  We have been so blessed already and will strive to continue to have faith.  Kaden is in our Lord's watchful care and for that I am most grateful.  I will post pictures and continue to update his progress.  I have a lot to learn.  Rusty and I have both had chances to take his tempurature and change his tiny diaper.  His diaper even says Pampers!  I have found a poem that kind of expresses some of the emotions running through me that I thought I would share.

As I Love you Through the Glass

by Elena Murphy

As I love you through the glass

a tiny hand sweeps across the blanket

reaching out to me.

You lie there in the stillness

of your slumber clinging to life;

I reach inside to touch you

and you stir slightly;

I feel a tiny breath like a feather

caress my fingers

as I love you through the glass.

One eye opens

easily staring into mine;

Can you see me?

Can you feel my presence

as I love you through the glass.

I ache to hold you;

I await the moment

when you peacefully rest in my loving arms

A silent tear rolls down my face;

I slowly turn to walk away 

only to glance back one more time

as I love you through the glass.

I am ALIVE!

So as all of you know I am admitted to the hospital on watchful care. I am using the hospital computer they can wheel into my room. Speaking of wheels...I might get my first wheelchair ride out of a room!! Now that is something to look forward to :) ...but I have to work up the energy. I have a very short attention span on this medication so this probably will be short. My mom is the one who keeps things updated which I am grateful for.

It all started as a bad night of contracting (caused by the blood clot sitting in my uterus...my uterus wants that blood out and it irritates my uterus) I have been doing this the whole pregnancy but this time when I was admitted to the hospital my contractions were 5-8 minutes apart and they don't like that for preterm and because I was only 22 weeks (not considered viability) my Dr. told me to go to the hospital he is contracted with. Well, after a very LONG rollercoaster of my highs and lowest of lows they did not want to transfer me until I was considered "Viable" (24 weeks aka TOMORROW!!!) and last wednesday my dr. told me I would probably deliver and said all these horrible things about premies and talked about taking me off the mag. I was not sure why this was all the case when nothing had changed but I just had an episode of heavier bleeding from the subchroionic hemorage. Then a couple hours later after telling me that I would deliver in the next 24 hours and a blessing from my hubby and my dad the dr. came in with a different tune and decided to transfer me earlier. Who knows why but I am grateful to be in more specialized care over here.

I am now at Banner Desert under the care of PPA-a group of specialists for me and the best doctors and NICU for my little Kaden! Everyone is so knowledgable here. The unit I am in is just dedicated to high risk pregnant moms who are trying to keep pregnant. The Neonatologist came in and told me that for every day I stay pregnant I grow Kaden 2 days of the work they can do for him. 1 day in the womb equals 2 or more outside. Amazing huh...?

I am on a consistent dose of Magnesium Sulfate and they occasionaly give me shots if contractions act up more...the shots are really the hardest. They cause me to not think clearly and if you can imagine I already am not in the clearest of minds...haha

I am grateful for all the prayers, love, concern and visitors. When I am not so wierd and able to access this as a clear minded person I will updated again.

Things I am grateful for: family, prayer, finally being able to have bathroom privileges after a week and a half, having a door in my room that I can open and hear the happy birds sing and just to hear the wind and for an occasional wheelchair ride I will be allowed to have. I miss being able to go outside...

My friend Elle brought me flarp! Noise Putty and it has made me laugh the most....THANKS Elle!

Again, your prayers and support are what are getting us through. This is a trying time but much has been learned allready!! THANK YOU THANK YOU!