Tuesday, June 2, 2009

I am ALIVE!

So as all of you know I am admitted to the hospital on watchful care. I am using the hospital computer they can wheel into my room. Speaking of wheels...I might get my first wheelchair ride out of a room!! Now that is something to look forward to :) ...but I have to work up the energy. I have a very short attention span on this medication so this probably will be short. My mom is the one who keeps things updated which I am grateful for.

It all started as a bad night of contracting (caused by the blood clot sitting in my uterus...my uterus wants that blood out and it irritates my uterus) I have been doing this the whole pregnancy but this time when I was admitted to the hospital my contractions were 5-8 minutes apart and they don't like that for preterm and because I was only 22 weeks (not considered viability) my Dr. told me to go to the hospital he is contracted with. Well, after a very LONG rollercoaster of my highs and lowest of lows they did not want to transfer me until I was considered "Viable" (24 weeks aka TOMORROW!!!) and last wednesday my dr. told me I would probably deliver and said all these horrible things about premies and talked about taking me off the mag. I was not sure why this was all the case when nothing had changed but I just had an episode of heavier bleeding from the subchroionic hemorage. Then a couple hours later after telling me that I would deliver in the next 24 hours and a blessing from my hubby and my dad the dr. came in with a different tune and decided to transfer me earlier. Who knows why but I am grateful to be in more specialized care over here.

I am now at Banner Desert under the care of PPA-a group of specialists for me and the best doctors and NICU for my little Kaden! Everyone is so knowledgable here. The unit I am in is just dedicated to high risk pregnant moms who are trying to keep pregnant. The Neonatologist came in and told me that for every day I stay pregnant I grow Kaden 2 days of the work they can do for him. 1 day in the womb equals 2 or more outside. Amazing huh...?

I am on a consistent dose of Magnesium Sulfate and they occasionaly give me shots if contractions act up more...the shots are really the hardest. They cause me to not think clearly and if you can imagine I already am not in the clearest of minds...haha

I am grateful for all the prayers, love, concern and visitors. When I am not so wierd and able to access this as a clear minded person I will updated again.

Things I am grateful for: family, prayer, finally being able to have bathroom privileges after a week and a half, having a door in my room that I can open and hear the happy birds sing and just to hear the wind and for an occasional wheelchair ride I will be allowed to have. I miss being able to go outside...

My friend Elle brought me flarp! Noise Putty and it has made me laugh the most....THANKS Elle!

Again, your prayers and support are what are getting us through. This is a trying time but much has been learned allready!! THANK YOU THANK YOU!

6 comments :

  1. You're amazing Jacquie. I can't imagine how difficult this has been on you and at such a young age. Your little man is lucky to have such a great mom. By the way, I have a friend who is a high risk/NICU nurse at Banner Desert. Her name is Heather Jorgensen and I'm hoping she'll be able to take care of you because she's great. Tell her hello for me if you run into her. We're praying for you and hope all continues to go well.

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  2. so glad to hear things are looking up.

    i've been so worried about you and kaden.

    obviously, i just relate to your feelings so much right now. i can't imagine how hard and scary it must be.

    you and kaden are both fighters! this is going to work out just as heavenly father intended.

    my prayers are with you. i hope things continue to get better!!

    xoxo,
    niki

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  3. Oh Sweet Little Jacquie! You are one incredible woman. Isn't it amazing how much love you already have for a child that you've never held? Isn't it also amazing the power of prayers and blessings? I'm so glad that you are hanging in there and that Kaden is hanging in there! My heart goes out to you!

    I was on bed rest with all of our kiddos from about 29 weeks until around 35 weeks and I thought it was so hard. I can not even begin to imagine what you are going through. I am going to get over to the hospital to visit you either Friday or Saturday.

    My thoughts and prayers are with you! Take care sweetie.

    Love ya,
    JoLynn

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  4. so glad that things are looking up :) we are thinking about you.. and praying for you!
    Cori

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  5. we are thinking and praying for you every day----go Jacqui!
    Frank & Jeanne

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  6. Rusty and Jacquie,
    We love you guys.. XoXoXo

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