Admist sorrow I am grateful.

I am not sure if this time of year is easy or hard to miss and remember our son.

I know it is hard.

I know that being almost forced to look at how much I have to be grateful for does ease a little of my pain.

This month leaves me completely drained.

A. I am pregnant

B. I miss Kaden more than words

C. I can find so much to be grateful for

As I look back at what has almost been a year without our son in my arms I can't believe we have survived.  We have done it! I say that with a huge whole in my heart and yet with suprise that I am strong enough and have enough faith to go through a trial and yet a blessing of having a child and only being blessed with a short time with him on this earth.  I can do hard things.  I am grateful for that.  Yet as that day November 30th comes closer my heart aches more for him.  I have been inspired by many people in this blogging world to list some things I am grateful for.

First and foremost my family.  All of them! Especially my adorable, fun loving, kind, hardworking, handsome husband!!! And of course my children...Kaden and my soon to be little Karter.  They all have had a huge role in my life.  They are helping me to become the person my Heavenly Father knows I can become!!

I am also grateful for my testimony.  I know the Gospel is true. I know it with all my heart! I am grateful for my Savior.  He knows my griefs and has carried my sorrows and continues to plead for me on my behalf.

I am grateful for friends.  Friends who love me for me.  They accept my faults and even love me for them.  They have been there for me in my good times and my extremely hard times.

I am grateful for those who lift me in my trials as they have experienced their own.

I am grateful for this season of gratitude to reflect on the most important things in this life.