How do I do this?!

Many of you ask how do I do this?! How do I go on?! How is this fair? and of course I ask myself the same questions. I think sometimes..."How can I do this for the REST of my life???" How can I bare this? We don't really have a choice in our trials...we only have a choice in how we accept them.

But I think the things that truly help me the most are the prayers from MANY on our behalf. I know that our Heavenly Father answers those prayers and gives us the strength that we need. This is why I always have to laugh when people tell me how amazing I and Rusty are. Our Faith and Knowledge is the ONLY thing that we can CLING to. I think those three things give us the strength along with loving friends and family surrounding us. Imagine if that is all you did was CLING to your faith....you would gain strength too!? RIGHT!

I would like to share some of those things I cling to...from a man who lost multiple children:

At the funeral of two year-old Marian Lyon, the Prophet said:

"We have again the warning voice sounded in our midst, which shows the uncertainty of human life; and in my leisure moments I have meditated upon the subject, and asked the question, why it is that infants, innocent children, are taken away from us, especially

those that seem to be the most intelligent and interesting. The strongest reasons that present themselves to my mind are these: This world is a very wicked world, and it....grows more wicked and corrupt...The Lord takes many away, even in infancy, that they may escape the envy of man, and the sorrows and evils of this present world; they were too pure, instead of mourning we have reason to rejoice as they are delivered from evil,

and we shall soon have them again...

"....The only difference between the old and young dying is one live as longer in heaven and eternal light and glory than the other, and is freed a little sooner from the miserable, wicked world. Notwithstanding all this glory, we for a moment lose sight of it, and we mourn the loss, but we do not mourn as those without hope."

"A question may be asked--'Will mothers have their children in eternity?' Yes! Yes! Mothers, you shall have your children; for they shall have eternal life, for

their debt is paid."

President Joseph F. Smith, the sixth President of the church, reported:

"Joseph Smith taught the doctrine that the infant child that was laid away in death would come up in the resurrection as a child; and, pointing to the mother of a lifeless child,

he said to her: 'You will have the joy, the pleasure and satisfaction of nurturing this child, after its resurrection, until it reaches the full stature of its spirit'...

(Teachings of Presidents of the Church Joseph Smith; Chapter 14, pg. 176-177)

Knowing that I will have my little Kaden again is the thought that gets me through the day...honestly there are days I ask why!? Trust me! But these things give me the

strength to endure.

more on this later...thanks for listening!!!