I can hardly believe
turning ONE YEAR
what is harder to believe or accept
is he only spent 6 months
I sit here and can't help but think what would he be doing? would he have oxygen still? how would his feedings be going? how would his birthday party be with him here? oh the list goes ON AND ON.
I try not to think about the sad as much as the happy but then of course the happy times makes me wish and long for those happy times again. The day Kaden was born changed me forever. I will forever be changed with him coming into my life. I have never felt so complete and so broken on one day in my life. I hope that he will be with us on his birthday even if it is just his spirit. I long to feel his warmth and love. will you pray that I do?