1 WHOLE YEAR

Last Year today...

I was exactly 22 weeks pregnant.

I was at my mom's house.

I think I remember getting stressed and worried about Kaden's Cleft.

SILLY now...

It was just another typical day of pregnancy bedrest.

I started feeling cruddy like usual.

I didn't feel too...too...bad like I was in labor or something

BUT

I had been feeling like that ALOT my whole pregnancy so I just thought oh this is just typical

BUT

it wasn't

I

was

in

Labor.

5-8 minutes apart

contractions

at a 1 and 80%

they

DID
NOT

like that

1 WHOLE YEAR

ago

the fight got even harder.

Bedrest at home-piece of cake

Bedrest at hospital

HARD

VERY HARD

But I did what I could...

bed pan, catheter, labor bed, mind games and all

I DID IT!

I fought for my little fighter.

I will never forget an episode of thinking we were going to loose him

The nurse put on the doppler

to find his heartbeat

it was PERFECT!

She said "WOW...he is a little fighter!"

yes oh yes he was!

I knew I felt different today.

now I know why.

I can't believe it's been a whole year

His birthday is coming up.

and I am a bit nervous.

It is just not fair to have a birthday party for your child who is not here.

SORRY IT's not FAIR.

I am sure it will be bitter sweet.

{Like the day he was born in a way}