Monday, February 1, 2010

Our Weekend...

This weekend started off with Rusty's cousin Mark and Annie Skousen having their third child. He was born on Friday.
Weston Steven Skousen
weighing 5lbs 12 ounces
19 inches long
This reminded me of a day Kaden and I shared. My original Due Date: September 23, 2009.
Kaden Addington Fife
weighing 5lbs 13 ounces
18 inches long
As I held Weston in my arms I couldn't help but think of that day. He most probably would have been a lot bigger if he hadn't been born on June 5, 2009 but it is what it is. It was a pleasure being with this sweet boy. He so reminded me of Kaden. He is a very happy calm and content baby. I decided to give Weston a stuff animal of Kaden's. I have a hard time parting with any of his stuff. Wether he used it, wore it, or even laid on was meant for him but I felt inclined to give Kaden's first "cousin" something from him.
I enjoyed the sweet spirit I felt around him. Sometimes, depending on my is very theraputic to hold hurts at times but it also fills my loving arms. My arms ACHE for my sweet little boy. They literally hurt to hold him. I never thought such a thing was possible. Thank you Mark and Annie for sharing your sweet bundle of JOY with me this weekend!
Then....on Friday night Rusty and I went over to Austin's house (Kaden's NICU buddy). Austin was born at 26 weeks on June 6, 2009. Heidi (Austin's mom) and I became good friends. We lived basically each other's life for a couple months. Austin is home. He still struggles a little like premies do but he is doing well. They blessed him on Friday.
We were there to support them and be excited for them.
I first must say how grateful I was to be included. Heidi was not afraid of hurting me...and for that I am grateful. She I am sure knew it wouldn't be the easiest baby blessing for me to attend. Austin brings so many memories of my sweet boy to mind.
We blessed Kaden the day before he passed away. My mom, mother in law, father in law, Rusty, and our Bishop were the only ones there. My Dad was in Mexico. I think this is why...I have a hard time at ANY baby blessing. Also, putting him in all white and laying him in a casket...seeing babies in all white is kind of difficult for me.
Thank you Heidi for including us and not being afraid to. Thank you for holding me while Austin was blessed. I didn't want to take away the attention from you and Austin. It was a very special day for you guys and I am so grateful you were able to experience it.
Saturday-Rusty and I and Gavin and Karly went hiking!
We went to Superstition and hiked 8 MILES! The Lost Dutchman trail...I took lots of pics...I'll post them later! We had a lot of fun and enjoyed the beautiful secenary. The creaks were full of rain water and I couldn't help but think of this song as we crossed them.
Like Stones in the River
Four years old at his front door he watches his daddy
drives away
He knows that something's wrong when he sees the tears on
Momma's face
His whole life will change
A teenage boy just down the road is suffering from choices
in his life
He's turning to the Lord, changing, getting stronger with
He never knew it was so hard
Like Stones in the river we are tossed and turned
When the current moves so strong
But stones in living water over time
Are shaped until the edges are gone
Polished and smooth that's what we will be
Each day of our lives is a gift from the Giver
To smooth all the edges
Like stones in the river
It's been three weeks since the last card of sympathy arrived
Her love of thirty years is gone, she wonders how she will
on her own
Standing on the curb one winter night they watch their house burn to the ground
The family pictures, every keepsake, even her wedding
All they own is gone
The Trials of our lives can work for our good
If we let the Savior's love surround us


  1. Jacquie, I am so proud of you for being so strong when you feel like crap. You have become such a beautiful woman, and I am inspired by your strength. I am sorry for your aching arms and heart. I hope you will be up for calling me soon so I can love on you!!!
    Auntie M

  2. Jacquie!
    THANK YOU for helping me out so much while we were in the hospital. It was nice to have some quite one on one time and just sit and talk about sweet Kaden. WE love the gift from Kaden Weston sleeps with it every night! Thank you for all your love and support..