To answer...or Not to answer...that is the question.

Is this not the most adorable sleeping boy!!??

I miss him/this A. L. O. T.

So...because many people ask these questions I thought I would answer them.
1. Is his crib still up?!

The answer is:

I have a hard time with this. Kaden never had his "own" room. If he did would I be more sad? Or could I always call it "Kaden's Room?" well...a part of me wants to take this down and get new furniture for our bedroom and a part of me just can't handle the thought. It stays up. I don't know for how much longer. But for now it is up. I love to look at it and think of his warm cozy little body in it...and there are other times I can't hardly stand to look at it.

Yes, it is representation that he is now gone...but it is also a representation that HE LIVED!! So...as many of you can or can't imagine it is one of those hard things to just put away.

Where is all of his stuff?

In the spare bedroom closet.

Also, known as Kaden's closet.

This is the closet I would come to after a bath with Kaden to pick out his cute outfit for the day. Oh how I miss picking an outfit. He has some cute clothes.

this was a hard day.

I put all his belongings besides his crib, swing, some pictures and momentos...

Once we are in a house I will find something else to do with it and for now this is where it will stay. He used all of it minus a few outfits, diapers, shoes, and his Christmas presents.

LAST...but not least.

NO I AM NOT PREGNANT...

nor do I know when I will be or when I want to be.
My pregnancy with Kaden was a rocky one and then to loose him

scares me to "love again."

BUT...

I will get there.

Just not today.

At risk of exposing myself. I always suck in...this is my belly reaaaaaaallly relaxed.

{have been working out...not really loosing weight...and am disappointed

especially when people ask "Are you pregnant!!?? :)"

DON'T JUDGE!! :)